thusia | (no subject)

[looks at him...]

I guess we needed that.

Yeah...

....

When do you think he'll come back?

I wish ...I wish I knew.

I hope it's soon.

I miss him...

I didn't even get to tell him...

I know... I know.

But he'll come back to us.

[Lays his arm over his eyes.]

Yeah. [Voice tight from laughing and now tears that want to fall.]

...

[shifts over and drapes an arm over him]

[Lets out a breath, then rubs at his face, trying to get rid of the wetness.]

You're the only one who understands it.

We're always waiting for him, aren't we?

Waiting to be together once again.

Even knowing he can handle it out there doesn't really change how this...feels.

No.

No, it doesn't keep it from hurting that we're far apart.

And knowing he is hurting too.

I want him back so bad... though he'll be fine. He's strong...

He is strong.

...

I want to know him... to know him as who he is now. What this life has made of him, even if he's not of my timeline. I was so afraid before... and I still am, but.. I want to be beside him.

I know just what you mean. I missed so much...

..... [Laying his arm over top of Alma's.]

Sometimes I would sneak out of my room at night and read books in the library. When I was upset, sometimes... I would read the books aloud and pretend I was talking to Yuu.

I thought... maybe he could hear me from wherever the dead go.

...When... the Noah pulled me out of my seal...

[hesitates, unsure if he should be talking to the other Alma about this at all]

....

They... made it happen by joining our minds... and making us relive our memories together, from a sort of... mingled point of view. Allen was somehow caught in it too, though it's not like I could notice that while reliving it. So I realized...for the first time... that the woman Yuu was seeing when he hallucinated, the hallucinations they were going to terminate him for. That she wasn't just some random person tied to whatever disconnected past he had. Because I saw her through his eyes and saw my own face. He didn't know that she was me, but of course I did. I was... the only one who had remembered everything, so seeing that... knowing that he had no idea...

--He... hallucinated.. us?

..... I didn't know. Not really. I didn't know until Yuu's memories made mine's burst.

I guess maybe I had unconsciously figured it out before that, but I didn't know who he was to me--or who we had been Before.

I remembered when I dropped down into that room where they kept the innocence and saw what they had hidden there. That's... why I lost it. Because I remembered everything... and what that meant they'd done to me... even though I didn't know Yuu was that man.