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[IGNORING HER NOW :Db]

[Kidale's just leaving their room, rubbing an eye. MIGHT HAVE SLEPT IN.]

[As soon as she spots him, Becca darts over and steals a hug.]

Hey, you. Been looking for you.

[. . . so it's like that . . .]

Yeah, I've got a couple of questions I want to ask you. Do you remember when I told you we had people we were going to move into our apartment? Right to your face? I never said maybe, did I? I made it crystal clear, right?

...Uh.

[THIS IS THE BEST AND WORST WAY TO WAKE UP]

Guys, do we have to argue about the exact wording? Everyone got a good arrangement out of things in the end.

No it's important.

He said they were gonna save it and eveeeeeeentually maaaaaaaaybe give it to some friends of theirs, even though space was so tight some people were sleeping in the hallways.

I never said eventually or maybe, princess.

[focusing on Kidale] Your girlfriend thinks I said "maybe", so she's decided that means she gets to run around telling people everyone in our apartment is crazy and dangerous even though over half of them haven't so much as looked at her wrong. And she won't even own up and admit she's been wrong doing that.

Then when I call her out on it, she screams at me that I deserve everything I get. And she keeps that up after she has one of her attacks and I try to fucking save her life. And then she cries and cries about how unfair I'm being and says things like if I don't apologize for getting mad about the lies she's been spreading then she'll keep spreading them!

Now she's probably going to start crying again about how I'm mean and unfair and how fucking awful I am and holy fuck all she wants is for everyone to be niiiiice to her because she's so goddamn "nice." Even while she's been threatening to dangerous rumors about me, my sister, and friends of ours living with us who are some of the kindest goddamn people I've met. But obviously it'll all be my fault for not giving in to exactly what she fucking wants.

So yeah. It's important.

By the way, do I seem crazy or dangerous to you right now, buddy? Does this line up with any of the bullshit she's been feeding you about us?

Edited 2012-02-04 08:16 (UTC)

[siiiiiigh]

This really isn't a good time to ask me about specific details. But I haven't been hearing anything about you, Scowl.

. . . So you don't care about any of that other shit? You're . . . I thought you were a decent fucking guy. You think the way she's been treating us is fair? You think that's right? You're just going to stand by and let her get her fucking way because she can cry?!

Answer me! I came to you for a reason! Don't let her think she gets to walk all over me and my friends!

Can't you see he just woke up? He must've needed his sleep after being in bed with me all night.

[huff]

I spent the whole night squirming and whimpering again.

[Scolding:] Becca.

Look, Scowl, I just gave up a year of my life to Leedin. I do want what's right -- more than that, I want you two to stop fighting. But I can't remember if someone said maybe or when or what from...however long ago it was again.

I'll admit that we shouldn't have tried to convince you to let us stay. I'm sorry. And Becca, you should be moving on from that.

. . . Even if I did say maybe—and I didn't—she's got no right saying we're crazy and dangerous! Whether you remember or not, you can tell I'm nothing like that right now, can't you? And even she has to be able to admit Allen and Link and Zel aren't like that!

Tell her that too. She needs to understand she isn't as nice as she thinks she's been, and she won't listen to me because she thinks I don't have the fucking right to be angry about any of it. She thinks she's been some saint through all of this. You're a decent person she'll listen to, so make her understand.

You guys are dangerous. Your sister hit me across the face for saying we need to work together and wouldn't even promise not to do it again.

It's only fair to warn the new people that they can get hit for talking to you guys. And guess what? That's crazy.

But even so. You complained so much, I stopped warning the new people, even though it means they're in danger of getting hit for being nice to you guys. And you won't even apologise for what you did!

—See? See? This is exactly what I mean. She's blaming our entire place for something my sister did like we're all responsible.

And stopping is a lie since you said to me maybe half an hour ago that you'd "stop talking shit about us" if I apologized for that. Your exact words! How is that anything like stopping? Last, I did apologize for scaring you that time. That's the only thing I needed to apologize for! I'm not going to apologize for not wanting to deal with you after that or for getting mad over the underhanded rumor spreading you pulled!

Becca, please don't spread rumors about people. He's got a point.

At the same time, Scowl, just because you apologized before doesn't actually help anything if you keep acting the way you did before.

Why can't you both just give a little ground?

[She lowers her head a little bit, but nods obediently.]

Fine. But he can't keep being mean to me! I've asked him like five times to be nice to me and he won't and won't apologise for being mean.

And if you guys weren't partially responsible for her hitting me, you'd've tried to stop her or told her she was out of line!

[DOESN'T EVEN HEAR BECCA totally focused on Kidale again. His voice is becoming strained near the end, clearly entering into the limits of his stress]

I . . . what . . . How is this the same? How is coming to you trying to get your help the same? What am I doing wrong?! What the fuck am I doing wrong?! Don't tell me you want me to play nice too! There's no way you are ever going to get me to slap on a fucking fake smile and play nice with someone who's treated me the way she has.

All I want is to leave each other alone. TELL ME WHAT I'M DOING WRONG WANTING THAT! TELL ME WHAT I'M DOING WRONG COMING TO YOU AND TRYING TO GET HELP TO GET THAT!! TELL ME WHAT FUCKING AWFUL THING I'VE ACTUALLY DONE!!!

Edited 2012-02-04 09:53 (UTC)

[Cringing and stepping back.]

I just--I'm trying to get both of you what you need. I'm trying to help, but neither of you will let me.

Why is it so hard to be nice to me? I'm willing to be nice to you. Just be nice to me it's not that hard!

[whirls on her, though he's not getting any closer]

No. I don't want to talk to you. I never want anything to do with you. You're a self-righteous liar, and I'm not going to pretend we get along for your precious feelings. Wanting to be left alone isn't mean. It's not.

[attention on Kidale again] Fuck this. You're as awful as her. Go ahead and let her think I'm the fucking awful one and she's a goddamn saint. She's fucking nice even though she's spreading vicious fucking lies about good, kind people. I'm the asshole for getting pissed off about it. I'm always just the shitty asshole!

[TURNING TO LEAVE :|]

Edited 2012-02-04 10:14 (UTC)

Scowl, I acknowledged your point and asked her not to spread rumors. How much further was I supposed to go to appease you?

He's mean to everybody and then wonders why everybody says he's mean. It's not worth it, Kidale. If he keeps acting like that, it'll be more than me saying he's mean and unreasonable, and I've given him plenty of chances to be nice.

[. . . turns back to them, still ignoring Becca]

You could have not acted like I was wrong for getting mad about what she did. When is it okay for someone to get mad? Should I have waited until people wouldn't deal with us over it? Until someone decided to treat me like shit because of it? Maybe until they decided I had to be the liar and took a swing at me?

I did it right. I didn't touch her. I even stopped arguing with her to come talk to you instead because I know I've got a fucking temper, so tell me. Where in that did I act badly? I did better. Than. Before. And you made out like I haven't been trying at all.

How am I supposed to know what either of you did or didn't do when I wasn't around?