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[Looks back at him.]

[Then smirks. Kind of weirdly.]

Ya should have seen me before them. I told ya I preferred these liabilities and that's just form the selfish, self preservation point of view.

[Freak.]

[But he doesn't appear bothered by the weird look. Walking inside to sit on the couch, waving Shadow off.]

Yeah, yeah. I'm sure you were just as big of a mess back then as you are now.

No, not yet. [Closing the door.]

My hand will come back, but that other stuff wasn't so easy a fix.

Other stuff?

There's a list. So much so I'm surprised it wasn't something with that stuff that killed me 'for good' in my world.

So what killed you?

No idea, actually. Everything was pretty peaceful at the time. Must have been terrible if I repressed THAT time of all things.

Sounds like your mind couldn't handle it. That's a shame.

That's exactly why it's odd. After all my worse case scenarios, why is it this one I forget?

Maybe dying was your worse case scenario.

No, not really.

I died twice before. That's what happens when ya get involved in conflicts involving gods, the power players never like to let their pieces stay dead.

You must have crap luck.

Yep,

But it gives me a pretty good perspective on things.

And what perspective is that?

A perspective of...

Of doing what I need to be happy, the importance of people, pride, independence...

A perspective of just understanding the world.

[There is actually an absence of sarcasm and condescension for once.]

How's that working out for you?

Compared to how it was before?

Actually pretty good.

If you call this "pretty good" then your life must have been one big shithole.

I'm not counting the transition here. I can't remember how that happened, so I really can't count it in 'am I doing better this way than when I was a bastard.'

But yeah, it kind of sucked a lot for a while until I got better. Then it got better.

You weren't doing a good job being a bastard, then.

No, part of the problem was I was very, very good at it.

Eventually people notice and someone is gonna manage to hit you for it.

[TELL ME ABOUT IT.

I MEAN NO YOU JUST SUCK AT IT.]

Then you hit back. [A shrug] Or send them into therapy. Problem solved.

Yer kind of naive, huh?

Not at all.

[Just delusional. Though to be fair, he tried the "sending into therapy" method and it worked pretty well to get people out of his hair. Also the hitting back.]

Of course ya are.

Ah, I guess ya've just had kid conflicts then.

Edited 2012-04-28 10:47 (UTC)