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Who: Apartment O + you? door is open
When: Day 32, evening
Where: Apartment O
What: family dinner...?

[There is a stew bubbling happily over the fire; leaf "platters" and shish-kebabs(? something-chunks on sticks), salad, a somewhat overcooked stirfry, and a gourd filled with fruit chunks in milky liquid are arranged on the kitchen counter.]

Okay, guys, get it while it's hot!

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.............R-right, that night.

[... :x!!!!]

So... ?

[aaawkward]

...Am I in trouble?

... That depends. Should you be?

I don't think so? Did she say I was?

She hasn't said anything. I don't even think she knows I noticed.

I'm just wondering if you meant anything by it...

I...mm. I wasn't really thinking that deeply about it at the time. It was more of just a thing that happened.

... I get that, actually.

But what about in the future?

Figured I'd play it by ear. I mean, it's not really up to me, is it?

Half of it is.

She's important to me. I just want to make sure it's something that would be good for her.

I don't know what's good and what's not. Heck, I don't even know if things're supposed to be different now. I didn't think so, but sometimes I'm slow to pick up on that stuff. Either way, she's my friend, first. I'm not gonna do something I think would hurt her.

I know you wouldn't. You're too kind for that.

I was just wondering if you'd thought about it, that's all.

Don't you think it's better not to?

... No.

But I overthink everything, always.

Usually I get accused of underthinking... But really, you can brood until the cows come home, and it's not going to change anyone else's reactions, at least not for the better. Do something or don't worry about it, that's what I say.

Sometimes all you can do is wait... It's hard not to brood in the meantime.

There's always something else to do if you keep looking! It helps if there's someone else around you can bother.

Mm... There's certainly never a dull moment, especially around here.

And that's good! Dull moments are bad for mental health.

Haha...sometimes. Other times they're essential to it.

Then it's not called 'dull,' it's 'relaxing.'

It can't be both at once?

I guess...? Just, usually no one wants to do dull things, while relaxing things are always a welcome option. Unless you're like, super-uptight.

Or if your life is hectic.

Dull can be nice, in comparison.

I guess. I like things to happen. Otherwise...