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Who: Apartment M + NATURE
When: Day 20, bright and early
Where: OUTSIDE ish
What: Sparkles gonna sparkle

[So the special apartment is hunting DRAGONS. Nothing could possibly go wrong!!]

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I've found, people take for granted the simplicity of their lives. In fact, there are many who often bemoan it, wishing upon wish that they could be more special than they are.

The kindest of gods rarely answer prayers for such reasons.

There were many who wished that. I was almost grateful then, because I knew then it wasn't my feelings.

Tide had been...the first I met in a long time where I felt I could be normal. Even if it was a bit strange, getting to know him, learning how he was a day at a time...

I was really happy then. Enough that the feelings would sometimes scare me, I never knew how to deal with them when they were my own.

Edited 2012-02-08 03:34 (UTC)

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You can be again. Even if not the same way, as a friend, he is a good one.

... And interestingly complicated to work out, for as simple as he presents himself.

... Ones own emotions .. is a much trickier subject, especially caught in the quiet with only them to ponder.

I...I do want to know him. I don't want him to be a replacement.

I just don't know...how. Because everything is suddenly quiet and after everything that happened...I don't know how to deal with everything. And he knows I'm not honest, but I don't know how to be honest without making him feel worse.

Then perhaps you have the answer in it...

You've been so deep in everyone else... maybe first, you need to seek yourself.

But I don't know where to start. Not with...this much of it.

Wherever everyone else begins... plucking at the strings of whatever knot is the strongest, until they are undone or you're too tangled to see out again.

...the strongest knot is the only one I know.

You'll manage, I have this faith. One thread at a time.

How do you move on from a loss at death when you're the one to die though? How do I...manage anything like that?

... Cry, my lady.

It's safe to begin mourning here.

But I'm not sure if I'll stop...I'm afraid I won't be able to...

... You will. Even if it means crying until you sleep, or even a few days...

Do you really think, with company as we have here, you could keep from a smile so long? Don't wait until you've forgotten how.

I....it's easy to smile...Easier to smile than to cry....

[But it's those fake smiles. Those smiles were so easy to do and felt so empty.]

My dear, I haven't seen you smile yet.

But I smile all...

I have wondered...how empty they've looked.

If it helps, I have some unfair advantages when it comes to languages.

Body languages too?

[A nod.] None of the smiles reach your eyes, your posture closed.

... Any time you need to...

...

[Staring at the bedding.] He promised to stay. He did...so much to stay.

Why did I have to leave him?

If I were my mother, I could have an answer.

And then very cryptically hint at it so you can realize what she was trying to say only after everything's happened.

I think it's already happened.

...

The cryptic, the answer or did you actually get to speak with Kolotha?

I left Tide. Why it happened...I can't really see what the why could be. Even though it's happened.

All threads have a purpose in forming the tapestry... That you do not rest... maybe it is the fact that you never left him. Maybe it is that you have another chance.

Maybe you are needed here for a high purpose...

I could not say.

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