ITP: Anonymous Confessions

[oi_theoi]

Who: Anyone!
When: Day 80, morning
Where: 1st floor
What: Anonymous Confessions

[Today the bulletin board features a new note in Ur'ghaste's scrawl:]

The 1st floor is still rather a mess of natural debris, isn't it? I've arranged a little event to clean it up quickly. If enough of you go down there today and make a confession, or give people advice about their confessions, you'll provide me enough power I should be able to get rid of most or all of it with one fell swoop. So go, make some honest confessions, help your fellows out! The more who contribute, the more of level 1 I can help out with.

Anonymity guaranteed*!

~~Ur'ghaste

* if you do not give yourself away, obviously.

[The 1st floor has a fog filling it today. You can still make out shapes -- should you have some reason to be getting somewhere, you can make out walls and corners and so on, as well as the general blurred shadowy shapes of approaching people. But the fog hides identifying features quite well, and you'll find it distorts sound just enough that voices should be unidentifiable.]


((OOC: Anonymous confessions! They're not compelled, just voluntary. As the post says, the fog should obscure visual/audio details. If you want to use an anon account, Thusia's is "anonymia" and the password is "gaspnature!". If you use the anon account remember to track the thread on a normal account or you won't get any notifs! I'm putting this post up from work so I don't have access to IRC -- if you have any questions please email me on harukami at gmail or reply to the toplevel "OOC Questions" thread and I'll get back to you asap.))

Comments

(OOC) QUESTIONS?

[oi_theoi]

(If you have any questions you can reply here to let me know, or email me at harukami at gmail.)

[anonymia]

Do you guys ever feel like this place is fucking borrrrrring?

[anonymia]

Beats the alternative. What do you want to do, though?

[anonymia]

It's not even that I'm jealous, you know? I'm not. I'm actually not. It's just that I have so much hate that I don't know where else to put it?

[anonymia]

The former sounds better than the latter, frankly.

[anonymia]

I actually, generally, don't mind being somewhere far away from everyone as long as he and I are together, but I hate the idea that my mother's mourning me right now. The idea of her pain is so devastating. I wish I could comfort her somehow.

[anonymia]

It's really hard on the people left behind... Does she have anyone else to comfort her?

[anonymia]

Is this really anonymous? I shouldn't be admitting this, but... I'd much rather be dead.

[anonymia]

I felt that way too when I got here. Sometimes I still do.

[anonymia]

Hm...?

Well, how about this: I am not what I appear to be. Literally, my physical form is not reflective of my true nature. I enjoy inhabiting such a body, but probably anyone who saw a more accurate image of my self would find it rather fearsome.

[anonymia]

I rather doubt that.

[anonymia]

I saw it.

No one knows, but I saw it.

[anonymia]

It's boring if you don't tell us what you saw.

[anonymia]

Even though I'm too ashamed to admit it, I secretly am desperately attracted to Yakumo Yukari. It's just impossible not to be, you know. She's just so brilliant and funny, I don't know what to do with myself.

[anonymia]

Hey! You're actually Yakumo Yukari, aren't you! I bet I'm right...

[anonymia]

Sometimes I want to tear this world and it's gods and it's ridiculous afterlife apart. I want to destroy it all.

[anonymia]

You can't! You're not strong enough.

How sad for you.

[anonymia]

I...um, well, I like someone that I said I wasn't going to like! But I think I only like them because they remind me of someone else. Is that bad?

[anonymia]

Why would you say you aren't going to like someone...?

[anonymia]

Hm. In general, I am happy. Truly happy.

But it frightens me at the same time.

[anonymia]

What frightens you about it?

[anonymia]

I think something has tampered with my memories.

[anonymia]

Are we talking Sabra La Tau tampered or something else? Because it's important to note the differences!

[anonymia]

Ahh... I really hate this place. It's so lonely, you know?

[anonymia]

Lonely? There's no shortage of people.

[anonymia]

It's not that I hate everyone here. It's just that sometimes...I want to crush everyone's skull.

[anonymia]

That's no fun. Play a little before the big finish.

[anonymia]

I can't remember anything from last night.

[anonymia]

Had a good time, did you? Hahaha.

[anonymia]

S̤̩̠̦̥̰̟̥̽t͎̜͖̪̙̺̒́ͥ̄͊͆͌ͩ͒a͍̪̠̻͕̼̠͇̍̋͑ͅy̩͈̺͙͍̣͎̌ͧ̍͑ͮͤ͑̚ ̲̞̝̩̼̲́̓̄ī̘̝̦̮͇ͭ̃ͥ͗n̠̟̩̻̓ͩ́̆̅ ̦̲͔͖̙̠̰͚͛͆ͫ͆ͪ̃y̺̰̥̬͓̲͕͙̔́ͣo͉̺̻ͣ͋̚̚u̩̤̭̟͔ͦr̙̗͈͈̠͉̣͂̆ ̙̥ͬ̒͛̏ͤ͐͌̔ͯc̩͓͉̰͂̉̓̈́̾̓a͚͓̼̥̲̺̜ͪͪ̾̃ͭ̑̎ͫ̂g͇̱̲͉͔̪̦̣̐ͮͅe̝̣͙͉͎̙̫͖ͯͫ̌.̲̜̩͇̦̤̐̊ ̰̣̾̌ͦ̉̏̔͐ͅI̹̩͙̗͇̦̙̬͛̊t̙̱̣̿ͤ̒ͩ̀'̠̜̫͍̞̥̣͇̃͆s̻̠̗̜͌̌̇͆̓̍͒̌̐ ̞̺͓͉̻̥̮̩̋͐ͫ͒͗s̮̯̫̗̲̤͗̉a̭̞͆ͭ̍͌ͥͨf̫͒̅͒ͯͬ͌̂̂e̘̘̣̣̝͍̰̱͍ͥ͛̓ͩ̋͛͒r̲̪̖̬͙̀.̗͕̘͈̋́ͮͪ̒͂ͤ

[anonymia]

Safer from what?

[anonymia]

I care about the people I've met here. I really do. But I still dream of the day I can leave this place and be at his side again, and I hate that I've been forced to leave him behind.

[anonymia]

I am in a very similar situation myself.

[anonymia]

Anonymous, huh... I guess it's okay to talk, then... I won't lie, more than anything else here I really hate myself. Am I the only one like that...? Everyone else seems so confident.

[anonymia]

Me too!

[anonymia]

I dearly miss my cat.

[anonymia]

...Me too, actually.

[anonymia]

I really hate that I didn't get the chance to kill my dad before I died.

[anonymia]

But what if they ended up here with you?

[anonymia]

It's easier to trust the gods here than the people.

[anonymia]

That's... unwise, I think.

[anonymia]

I, um...I am so utterly lonely and lost without her. I don't think I can...do this without her...

[anonymia]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[anonymia]

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[anonymia]

So that happened. And now I'm torn between thinking it was the greatest idea ever and wanting to get drunk because what am I doing?

[anonymia]

Had sex with someone did you?

[anonymia]

I don't like being alive. Aside from the implications it carries, there's too many things to feel.

Everything is more simple when you don't have a pulse.

[anonymia]

Easy way to fix that.