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Who: Slick and Yuri (+ anyone else wanting to backdate Allenparty shenanigans)
When: Day 24, early afternoon (backdated)
Where: Ticky's room
What: 8D;

[SO GOOD DECISIONS WERE MADE, and shortly after noon, Allen leaves Ticky's room with no doubt good intentions.

Slick stays behind and soaks in his own blood

FUN TIMES]

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He's alive. Just in pain. It seems I can drive him into despair with a little rejection. I could have pretended, but I just couldn't resist telling him the truth.

. . .

[very still]

It must be a strange idea to you still. That Ticky Mikk could love Allen Walker so much.

[pets his hair |3]

But you have that power. You have that power over a lot of people. It's a little thrilling, seeing it and using it.

It's disgusting. Not thrilling. Abusing love like that . . .

[voice shaky]

But wouldn't it feel good to just lash out at the world for once?

. . . not like that. Never like that.

[traces his hand from his cheek to down his jaw to his throat, down to his chest]

Love comes with all these duties. To the world, to humans, to akuma, to even Noah... duties I can never really fulfill.

All that weight is gone now. It feels good, Allen.

. . .

[pushes him away]

I have this stupid conversations with myself all the time. I don't need to have it with you.

That kind of thinking can go straight to hell.

[aww don't push =(]

I don't really care. Maybe that's just what I want.

And I'm supposed to give you what you want?

That's not what I want for you. i just want to spoil you, Allen.

Haha! Is that so?

Why don't we get to know each other a little more closely? There's so much you've never gotten to feel. What if you never claim it? I can't have that.

Thank you for your concern, but given your track record, apparently you needn't worry about it.

Oh?

[seems cheered! moves forward AGAIN, this time cupping his cheeks with both hands excitedly]

Will you promise me then? To chase what you want. It took me ages, and still I just hold back and hold back. You shouldn't hold back!

. . .

[genuinely startled]

Ah—

You died for the world too. Nobody thanked you, nobody was with you. The people you saved were probably glad you were dead. We always knew we'd die like that, right? But it was okay.

But it's not, it's not okay, and I don't think we should have to be alone anymore. Even lovers we take can't compare to someone who truly knows everything. I'll love you and only you, Allen. Not Nea, not a dog, not an exorcist, not a Noah. Just you.

[jerks, trying to take a step back]

I don't . . . want . . .

[holds him tighter]

Yes you do! I know you do. I know that's all you've ever wanted. I can give you that.

No you can't!

Of course I can. So what if it's from another failed self? We'll never know how Mana felt, so this can be good enough. We should take care of each other, always, from now on.

. . .

Stop it. Stop it . . .

It's okay. It's safe to need me. I won't ever betray that. I won't. I know how it all felt. I know how afraid you are.

[pulls him close to kiss him firmly]

. . .

[pulls his arm back to punch him firmly]

[asjdfl;a]