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[growsonyou]

Who: Anyone
When: Day 133, midday
Where: 2nd Floor
What: Return of the Anonymous Confessions

[Today the bulletin board features a new note in Ur'ghaste's scrawl:]

There's a contribution I'd like to make around here, but I'd like your aid in making that doable. If you go to the second floor today and make a confession, or give people advice about their confessions, you'll help get me juiced up, as it were. So go, confess what's on your mind -- I'm sure there's plenty, these days.

Anonymity guaranteed.*

~~Ur'ghaste

* to repeat from before: if you do not give yourself away, obviously

[The 2nd floor has a fog filling it today. You can still make out shapes -- should you have some reason to be getting somewhere, you can make out walls and corners and so on, as well as the general blurred shadowy silhouettes of approaching people. But the fog hides identifying features quite well, and you'll find it distorts sound just enough that voices should be unidentifiable.]

((OOC: Anonymous confessions! The fog should obscure visual/audio details. If you want to use an anon account, Thusia's is "anonymia" and the password is "gaspnature!". If you use the anon account remember to track the thread on a normal account or you won't get any notifs! I'm putting this post up from work so I don't have access to IRC -- if you have any questions please email me on harukami at gmail or reply to the toplevel "OOC Questions" thread and I'll get back to you asap.))

Comments

OOC QUESTIONS

[growsonyou]

(if you have any)

[anonymia]

I've never killed anyone.

[anonymia]

You're one of the lucky ones.

[anonymia]

You're missing out!

[anonymia]

Why don't you give it a try, and tell us how you enjoy it once you've finished? It seems fun.

[anonymia]

There's not enough alcohol for Never Have I Ever...

[anonymia]

I want to kill almost everyone all the time.

[anonymia]

Don't.

[anonymia]

You should!

[anonymia]

The lack of indiscriminate sex here is horrifying.

[anonymia]

Everyone's died. Why not party it up?

[anonymia]

The fact that you could suggest such a thing is horrifying.

[anonymia]

Ahahaha - you'll frighten the shy ones off with that kind of talk.

[anonymia]

Why?

[anonymia]

I said last time that I didn't know what to do for myself, but it's worse now. I don't want either of the options I'm consistently given here.

[anonymia]

What might those options be?

[anonymia]

Is it possible to simulataneously want to punch the person partly responsible for your death in the face and remain... "fond" of them in spite of what they did?

[anonymia]

No.

[anonymia]

I'd do it all over again if I had to.

[anonymia]

... is this a good thing or a bad thing?

Determination's all well and good, but...

[anonymia]

Sometimes I don't know why I do the things I do.

[anonymia]

Oh? What do you do?

[anonymia]

I'm relieved I ended up here if I had to die, but I feel bad about it too.

[anonymia]

Think that's most people's sentiments.

[anonymia]

It's normal to want to lock yourself in your room and never come out again, isn't it?

[anonymia]

"Never" sounds too long, but sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone! Locking yourself in works pretty well then.

[anonymia]

I really fuckin' hate these things.

[anonymia]

C'mon, it's not so bad! Well, except that there are a lot more people that want to kill people than I thought...

Were you just down here when the fog came in?

[anonymia]

It's a bit sad how young everyone here is.

[anonymia]

It is pretty depressing.

[anonymia]

I hate it here. The people are nice enough, but my family is back home and I hate being away from them and I'm....I'm afraid that if I stay here, then I'm going to lose myself. I'm afraid that next time...next time, I won't come back.

[anonymia]

You know you're dead right? Folks back home've already mourned you and're startin' to get on with their lives.

[anonymia]

Sometimes I think I'm the reason I can't find happiness, that I am constantly sabotaging myself.

[anonymia]

Are you? I mean, how do you think you're sabotaging yourself?

[anonymia]

I feel like—I've forgotten how to be myself. Ah, it's sort of not the first time, even, but this is entirely different . . . I just mean, I have so many wonderful people that care about me, but I don't know what to do, for them, or for me, and I really feel like I should. I can't even make a confession sound coherent . . .

[anonymia]

I can understand that... though, is something specific making you feel like you need to do something?