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Who: Kon + Anyone
When: Day 121, early evening
Where: 4th level
What: Studying residents and asking questions

[So, a young man in casual clothes with a deep royal-purple kimono draped over his shoulders is loitering around today near the fountain or between the stairs-now-with-elevators and the shrine area, watching people come and go.

Once in a while he'll ask a question, just kinda out loud to whoever in the area is listening, or directly to whoever's passing by.]

Yo~! In the interest of challenging yourself and your beliefs a little, tell me about what you think of being here. Like how you feel about the circumstances of being brought here or living a new life, that sort of thing.

No need to be shy.

((ooc: Slowpost! I'll be replying to everyone I can (slowly), but of course feel free to discuss his question amongst each other as well. Also, Kon is looking for interesting people to collect memories from :x.))

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I don't see Rin as being the type to kill easily in the first place. Her Servant is another issue entirely. Even then, he does tend to follow her lead at least in cases such as those. But if the order were to "defeat him", then that would warrant a kill.

Edited 2013-02-28 09:43 (UTC)

Her Servant...

[clear distaste on his face for a moment there]

If you have issue with him, you can speak to me of it.

[yeah, pretty much meaning it like someone who takes full responsibility for a person. gee.]

[sure. you can take responsibility if you like]

...When I first arrived he struck me and told me he would gladly kill me again. When I hadn't seen Rin in some time -- and I know she was gone in some manner -- he refused to keep me informed and implied I wasn't to be trusted. He was an all around rude and unmanageable person, and yet for some reason the two of them were seeing each other romantically.

I'm afraid I have very little faith in his self-control and wish very much that she hadn't run off with him.

[wait.

what.]

... must've been after the Truth or Dare...

[talking to himself...]

...Eh?

As for him being rude... he is mostly blunt. But he tends to have an accurate assessment of a person, so if he's threatened to kill you, I can't help but wonder what you've done to earn that temper.

[something he very, very visibly doesn't want to even think about]

...The biggest lesson I've learned is not to assume that anyone else will hold to my standard of conduct.

... Tohsaka. I can be patient. But I've invited you into my home, this in spite of my own personal experiences and opinions on magi in the first place. I do not think of you as an enemy but I also do not consider you a friend. You are one of many of your type, and I've dealt with many a magi who have done more than enough to earn that sort of anger from a person--but from that spirit in particular?

Not even Kotomine Kirei outrages him enough for the conduct you've mentioned. Very few things do, in fact.

So tell me. Exactly what kind of person have I invited into my home?

I...

[The thought of being worse than Kirei makes him sick. No way, he's not like that. He took no joy in anyone's pain (except maybe that one time, but it was Kariya). He betrayed no one--

Except that, ultimately, that's exactly what he did. He betrayed someone who couldn't even speak up. Someone he wasn't just supposed to support, but to protect.

The guilt is, for a moment, all over his usually artfully composed face, and then he looks down and tightens his hands into fists in his pant legs.]

I misjudged something and sent someone I loved to hell. But I have no intention of harming an innocent now, even by mistake. I am not Kotomine Kirei.

[if there's anyone who can feel sympathy for pretty much anyone, it's Emiya Kiritsugu but even he looks grim as he weighs those words and puts pieces together where he can]

You're not. [but it's a cold comfort...]

Kotomine Kirei is a person ruled by his nature. He finds joy in suffering, so he seeks that just as anyone would seek kindness for joy.

You, like so many other magi, purposefully blinded yourself to the possibility of the pain others might experience. [the spite for magi is clear here in the clipped tone to his voice and the leveled stare at Tokiomi] To truths that were as plain as day, such as with Kotomine. That is your fault as much as any other.

[pauses a moment... taking a breath and rubbing at his forehead, looking away]

... I cannot judge many people because of the countless mistakes I have made and people I've knowingly hurt and made suffer, but I will tell you this: my family is all that I have here. Even Kotomine Shirou is included in that definition in spite of everything. Archer as well.

...You've said nothing I didn't already know save that you consider that Archer your family. I've dedicated my life to learning, and if the things I've had to learn here are different they are no less valuable. Some of the mistakes I made I know are massive and irreparable, but I am no threat to your family now.

I make it a policy to not trust magi who claim to be harmless.

Especially ones that have harmed their own.

I'm simply giving you my word that I don't intend to hurt them. Your trust is unnecessary for that word to bind me.

A magus's honor is in his words, is it.

As you're aware, words mean quite a bit in magecraft.

But no. My pride as a magus means very little to this world. I give you my word as a man. I have enough on my head that I can't atone for. I won't be making more.

[biting back words at that. it really is difficult, being faced with this sort of person...

looking away from, really aching for a cigarette if only for something to do.]

... the power of a magus can go very far in this place if applied correctly, but I'll accept what you've said.

[grudgingly.]

I am using it to the best of my ability. I mean that there are a minimum of people who recognise that pride.

[In other words, I can't get whatever I want by throwing my family's weight around yep.]

Regardless, I don't request your friendship or alliance. I just wanted to know who that boys was and if it was relevant to tell you he had been injured.

Most people would see that pride as hubris.

[it's like he is utterly incapable of NOT having something negative to say about magi]

... one last question. You said you healed some of the damage from your flames?

[just... not commenting on that first bit]

As much as I could with elementary knowledge in that field. It should finish healing normally on its own.

... thank you.

[the most quiet of sincerity]

...

[what a troubling situation]

When it hit him he seemed to just... shut off. I couldn't walk away from that.

... when I found Shirou in the Fuyuki Fire, he was almost gone. There was nothing left where I found him. The homes, the people...

[and for him, it has only been about five years since, less than three months since he last spoke to his Shirou of his childish dreams and hopes, leaving him with that.]

He was literally... the only person still alive I could find, but it was devastating for him. He had nightterrors for years after, none of which he would exactly remember...

...

[If he were alone he might say a rude word. Even moreso because they only just got off a certain topic that's making "it could have been worse" crop up in his mind like a cruel pinch.]

A truly unfortunate child.

[he's just fortunate he didn't say that aloud.

the problem is what to say now...]

If Kotomine Shirou ever does approach you again, avoid flames unless you have need to defend yourself, and avoid any mention of me to him. You'll only incite his temper. What Kirei did put a scar worse than what the flames did, so he will lash out to preserve himself.