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[beautymark]

Who: Anyone
When: Day 89, afternoon
Where: everywhere!
What: mingle time!

[So how is your day going, Thusia?

Let's hope it's pleasantly fun!]

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[no_hero]

[will just be... taking a moment to breathe and rub a hand over his face as well. the harsher expressions falling back into a softer one, completely sharing the misery of his guest--perhaps more]

That's exactly what it is I'm afraid of.

You tell me that Shirou... some part of this Kotomine Shirou remembers being Emiya Shirou, and the first thing I think to myself is "Will I have to sacrifice another of my family--Emiya Kiritsugu's son--to ensure that the monster he has latched onto doesn't stay where it can hurt others?"

Because that is the life I lived... back home. Back there, I had a hand in a lot of terrible situations, believing myself correct--and in a lot of ways, possibly so. Being right or doing the right thing... that's not an easy life at all. I was glad to die, if only because if I lived I feared another would have to die instead.

Here... since dying... getting back what pieces I have lost even while others railed at me for being the cause of such misery--I was able to regain my wife, my daughter, my son... and then the possibility--no, the reality of losing them over again...

... if you ask other from similar worlds as ours... the fate of Emiya Kiritsugu is often the same. He is killed. And so is his family. I don't want that for me, or my family, anymore.

[didnteventry]

Then what do you think should be done about him? Some choice has to happen. Doing nothing is a choice too.

[no_hero]

Three choices are more than I usually get.

[said flatly, almost cynically, but wearily looking away]

Break him and remake him, kill him permanently, or do nothing. Those are the options.

I know I'm capable of the second. I know a youkai who has cheerfully volunteered to assist with the first. The third... isn't something I could do.

[. . . god, Kiritsugu, you know the answer just by your own nature, don't you]

[didnteventry]

I'm not going to tell him anything if you say not to. That's a mess it isn't my business to force you into.

[no_hero]

[you're not exactly the most formidable when it comes to interrogation, though]

... I need some time to think it over.

[didnteventry]

[hey I don't expect Shirou to want to know]

...That's fine. He's not going anywhere for now. His apartment is 2F if you want to avoid it. Mine's 2H.

[no_hero]

... thank you.