No. You are a fool who makes the same mistakes over and over and gets frustrated when nothing changes. You are someone who tries and tries, but falls into bad habits. You are selfish, you can be cruel... But everyone has such faults. It doesn't make you a mistake. You deserve to live. You cannot keep wallowing like this.
Do you know how strong you can be? How loyal you are to your friends, how hard you try, your determination, your drive? You have terrible things to you. And you have wonderful things too. But what you are doing right now... You will never be happy if you keep this up.
Everyone deserves to live. Always. And everyone deserves to be liked.
Everyone has something about them that isn't good. No one's perfect, but you need to keep trying even with your flaws. Because there's also all that good stuff too. There will always be stumbling points when you're trying to improve, but you can't give up. Change takes a long time, but if you give up, then of course nothing can improve.
It's hard work, but isn't it more of a shame to make it all be a waste because you didn't keep at it? Everything that's hard becomes easy, but you need to keep at it to reach that point.
[Pause.] And sometimes it's a part of friendship to point out the flaws. If you can't trust your friends to point out when you're messing up and be honest about it, then who CAN you trust?
All I have is my strength, my loyalty...it's all I have...and that's exactly why he's mad at me...like it's a bad thing that I'm loyal to him...
I want people to appreciate me...so I can make a difference, so I can be worth remembering...but I don't get that, either. Just a whole bunch of people mad at me for trying.
It's TOO hard. I can't keep at this. Not like this. I'm not that strong.
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Why should I like me? I'm just a mistake that keeps living out of stubbornness and stupidity. That's WHY I have to work so hard to be good enough!
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THAT WAS MEANT TO BE A 1/2 oops
Do you know how strong you can be? How loyal you are to your friends, how hard you try, your determination, your drive? You have terrible things to you. And you have wonderful things too. But what you are doing right now... You will never be happy if you keep this up.
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Everyone has something about them that isn't good. No one's perfect, but you need to keep trying even with your flaws. Because there's also all that good stuff too. There will always be stumbling points when you're trying to improve, but you can't give up. Change takes a long time, but if you give up, then of course nothing can improve.
It's hard work, but isn't it more of a shame to make it all be a waste because you didn't keep at it? Everything that's hard becomes easy, but you need to keep at it to reach that point.
[Pause.] And sometimes it's a part of friendship to point out the flaws. If you can't trust your friends to point out when you're messing up and be honest about it, then who CAN you trust?
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All I have is my strength, my loyalty...it's all I have...and that's exactly why he's mad at me...like it's a bad thing that I'm loyal to him...
I want people to appreciate me...so I can make a difference, so I can be worth remembering...but I don't get that, either. Just a whole bunch of people mad at me for trying.
It's TOO hard. I can't keep at this. Not like this. I'm not that strong.
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But it's that obsession thing again. Remember, Becca? The picture you showed me...it made you realize something, didn't it?
If you only direct it all at one person, then it's going to become a weakness instead of the strength it should be.
And if you can't keep going like this...then try a different way.
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