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Who: Anyone
When: Day 49, Late afternoon/early evening
Where: Anywhere
What: Mingling

[This is a mingle! GO WILD.]

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[squeezes her close again '-']

I'm sorry I've been so... aah... I thought when you were gone, I've been an idiot, not showing my face...

...I know, it's been hard on you too, ah...

It's better now that you're back.

[Squeezes him '_'] I'm glad.

[l...let's just stay here a bit]

[Yes that sounds good to me, maybe if I hold on tight enough I will never lose you ever]

[COPING

Allen shifts to settle against the back wall of the bed so they can just. stay like that]

[Awesome then I can lean against you and relax]

I love you, Allen. I'm really glad you're here too.

[...closes his eyes his throat tightening up pretty hard. presses his cheek against her hair]

Yeah. I love you. I'm glad we're here together.

And I'm sorry I... for everything... for everything I ever did to you.

It wasn't your fault, it wasn't... I used to really want to kick you, you know? For leaving like that, but... [Swallows, her voice thick] But you didn't have a choice at the time, I know. You didn't deserve any of that, you didn't...

... I was still the source of everything that happened. It really would have been better for everyone if nobody had ever met me. Better for you...

But I can't undo that now so... I shouldn't keep trying to run away even now. I. You always refused to abandon me. I can't repay you for that by pushing you away.

I don't want to anymore.

[DISTRESS] Don't- Don't think like that! Nothing would be better, how could that be better... I love you and I need you, don't you dare think like that! It's not repaying us, it's because we're friends, because we both want to... You never did anything to be blamed for!

I-- I know it's not really repaying, it's not like that, it's not a debt or anything, I just want to be with you.

[reaches with one of his hands to find Lenalee's scarred wrist and squeezes gently]

I just want to be with you even though I'm worse than ever. I should have figured it out sooner. Before Sabra.

Stop... Stop saying things like you're worse, like we never should have met you, I don't want to hear things like that... I want to stay with you too, Allen, we can stay together so please don't think such things.

[o. ok i will stop saying them

cuddle '-']

[Yes cuddles, my Allen]

I don't want to live a life where I never met you.

...

I still haven't told you how i died...

...Allen, I... I heard.

[oh. ok.

Tenses up a lil ]

[N-Noooo, hugs and hair pets and shhhh]

I've known all this time, but you're- You're still Allen, you're the man that always fought and struggled for the sake of others, the man that will do whatever it takes to protect the people he cares for, even ones he doesn't know, the man I've laughed with and cried with and who comforted me when I needed it... You're still the Allen I love, no matter what you've done.

. . .

[...

the... the only response I have to that is to just curl up and bury my face on your shoulder.

all those parts of me that always tried to at least keep some things from touching you just got owned so

that response is basically all I have left without that]

['^' Holding him tight for as long as he needs then, let me cover you with love Allen]

[THIS IS STILL ABOUT YOU]

Aah. you're really. Amazing. I'm so... so glad I met you. Thank you. Thank you.

[But you have so many feelings]

Thanking me for something like this... That's just how it is.