thusia | (no subject)

Entry tags:

(no subject)

Who: People
When: Day 49, late morning
Where: Nature!
What: Dangerrrr

[DEHIATUSIN'. Go forth and rescue your spider-napped crazy people, they're surely not full of doom.]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

What?

[I did nothing wrong, totally.]

Why did you- And, wh-why wouldn't you tell me about it?

I was going to tell you.

...when I figured out how to do it without you freaking out. [Which, with Muppet...]

[Actually sitting up now.]

O-Of course I would freak out, it's bad!

It's shady as all get out, but there are advantages.

But there's s-s-something in your head, and... A-And you can't get healed...

And I've had a lifetime where I couldn't get healed either and I survived just fine. You saw me in the Park, and that was fighting against things that couldn't feel pain. You know how much that put them at an advantage.

But here you don't have to- You shouldn't have to!

Muppet, I took Luna's deal for a lot of reasons. A 'luxury' wasn't going to be enough to outweigh the pros. Not even the cons could.

What reasons?

[There's a long moment of silence.]

[...she sighs, curling up a bit and looking away.]

The way I see it, there's three types of people who can live here.

Huh?

Three kinds of people who can live here.

The hunters, the survivors, and the supporters.

Hunters are obvious. They're the people who can beat back nature and bring back things in a surplus.

The survivors are those who can handle themselves enough to gather and can at least watch out for themselves. They can't do the surplus, but at least they don't need to be taken care of.

The supporters are the people who don't have a hope of watching out for themselves. They can't hunt, they can't keep from getting killed long term, but they have a use. They can cook, clean, take care of the hunters who are taking care of them. Watch the fort.

Those are the type of people who can live in Thusia. But which one am I?

You've always been a survivor, and, you support me...

Edited 2012-07-02 22:42 (UTC)

And if I was on my own, I would be fine with survivor. I could go like that. Probably on a vegetarian diet, but I could.

But then there is you. Support you? How? You don't need to eat, you don't really make a mess, and there's still better sewers than me.

In the end, it's more like you're taking care of me instead of any sort of partnership like it should be.

I... I-I can't. Do anything. Without you... I didn't have anything, there was nobody, and then you came and you gave me a reason to be useful a-and you were my friend and you taught me things and you gave me so much, I... You're everything Clarice, saying things like that... You're the one always taking care of me! Keeping me out of t-trouble, keeping the w-w-wolf back, showing me about the world, even though I don't know and some people think I'm stupid you never do, you almost always try to explain unless I'm, uh, 'too young'. You... You help me talk to people when I can't find the words, and you let me hug you even though you never liked that things in the park could move, you always care, you... C-Clarice, you really think that?

...I do.

I know how you feel, Muppet. You're not exactly hard to figure out. I know you care and I know I make you happy. Even if I still don't get why you think I'm that awesome, but that's your opinion. [Shrugs.]

But there's a difference between what I know and what I feel.

I'm...sick and tired of being useless when it counts. The fact is, even if I can keep myself alive, I don't have a hope of protecting anyone. I hate that. I hate people I care about getting hurt, and it keeps happening. Not just you, but others.

...even if I know it's not completely true, I feel useless.

Edited 2012-07-02 23:09 (UTC)

...

[Hug Clarice :(]

[Sighs and leans against him.]

I decided to become someone's priestess because of that. Training to be a fighter, to be at the level I want, it would take a long time and more things will happen during that time. Even if the deals still sound shady, it's something I can work with. I can protect others, I can fight against things I can't normally. Heck, I can even hunt.

And if I was going to do that, then I decided on the one who would make me the most useful to the person I care about the most.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only