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Who: WHOEVER
When: Day 46, evening
Where: PLACES
What: ... mingle...

[ what're you doing...? ]

[Surprised for a few moments and smiles, hugging him close and patting his head.]

It's not an easy lesson to learn. And I know it's hard to not run out and do that. Honestly I really only kept as composed as I did because it was Edward and I trust Edward to always survive.

The other time someone vanished, I needed a literal smack from a Moss Lion to remind myself that I had to take care of myself too. It can be hard to practice what we know mentally sometimes.

Yes, but. You also helped me realize...

...I mean, even before, when no one was missing. I would just...go out into nature -- honestly not caring what happened to me.

But after what you said that day, when we went looking for him -- and a while ago with Becca...

...I was being so selfish and foolish.

I am very sorry!

[There's a looong pause and oh wow...there was a reason to be worried then.]

[But...if her words really got through to him. If this meant he did mean it...]

[She smiles and hugs him again.] Apology accepted.

[SORRY IF HE DOESN'T PULL AWAY IT'S TOTALLY BECAUSE HE'S CRYING.]

[That's okay, I can hug for a while and headpat.]

[AWESOME, you're a bro]

...I am really sorry.

I know.

It'd be silly for you to apologize for something like that now and not mean it.

I know. I just...

[sighing lightly]

...Everything you said back there made me think. Of a lot of things. Things that I never thought would even matter when I first arrived.

[also your life, just, hugging TIGHTER]

[M-my life.]

It did?

[nodding a bit]

It did. It is still hard, being here. Being...myself. But with all of you...

[okay stopping so he can push back tears]

...

Yeah, it is hard being here.

But you should always be yourself. We like Wander.

[ffffff hearing that is so hard, but...]

I think...k-knowing that helps. A lot.

I'm glad to hear that.

[good, will just...more hugs]

...How are you, Razzy?

....

Ah, I was expecting that.

I'm fine, Wander.

Ah, am I that predictable?

No, more like it's to be expected?

I'd worry if I heard a story like that.

So then...

Are you positive that you are all right?

[j-just making sure]

[Nods.]

I am. I dealt with all that years ago. [Or rather, Chrono murdered the issues in a necessary heart games so I could deal with the rest, but...details.]

And four years in Amestris helped a lot.

[.................Razzy.]

If something bothers you, will you let me know?

[congrats, you are now on Wander's list of "PEOPLE TO IRRATIONALLY FRET OVER"]

[Well, I got mindfucked by a GOD and then my issues were trying to murder everyone while people were fixing it. Chrono had to do SOMETHING.]

Of course I will. I don't like bottling things up. Did that enough too.

[but your liiiiiiiiiife]

You promise?

[JUST MAKING SURE OKAY?]

[....do I want to make that promise.]

[Really has to consider that, sorry.]

You might hear a lot more sad stories that way.

[it is a very hard promise to make, he knows. and given that his brain broke because of how much sadness he kept seeing...

but nope, he will handle it]

I know. I am prepared for that.