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Who: Team Moe Regret
When: Day 43, late afternoon
Where: Common Room, some clear corner WELL AWAY FROM THE SHRINES
What: gosh, they are all the shell-shocked and miserable, why would you even go near?

[only stopping with the whole leading Iri away from the Sabers when there is a sufficient enough space AWAY from them, but not wholly out of Saber's view if she comes looking for them...]

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I don't know what kind of person you are. If it was me, I'd want it up front because then I can deal with it. But because you're -- [ . . . ] I don't know. Today's already been rough for you, hasn't it?

The past three days have been hell. Keeping information from me at this point will not help.

It's about Shirou.

. . .

[if you tell me he's dead, too, there will be no coping]

[ . . . see this is why I'm not sure I want to tell you. ]

[own willingness to hear this is rapidly fading...

voice is very quiet]

. . . what is it?

[ . . . hesitates but. Ok, let's just. Get into this slowly. ]

In the Fifth War I summoned an Archer Class Servant.

[... same class as in the last War. not surprising]

He wouldn't tell me his name at first, but . . . Masters get to know their Servants . . . [ though idk about you since you suck

GOD WHATEVER GO FOR THE KILL. ]

. . . He was Heroic Spirit Emiya.

Edited 2012-04-28 00:10 (UTC)

[. . . . . what

that doesn't even make SENSE]

The Throne of Heroes is outside of time.

. . . I guess simply you could say that 'Emiya Shirou' wanted to help others so badly that he became a guardian.

My stupid Archer is that person.

[. . . I don't... even know how to react to this.

just keeps thinking about that night... and Shirou... hero of justice...]

[ . . . watches him, waiting a bit. ]

[and then, like a heavy weight settling on him... it's very clear he knows who's at fault for that result...]

[ GOOD.

FEEL BAD.

EXCEPT EMIYAS ALWAYS MAKE ME ANGRY!

ugh so mad. But her voice doesn't sound angry. ]

The Emiya Shirou that became Archer thought he could save everyone. The Emiya Shirou I left behind knew he couldn't.

[. . . I think you broke it more]

[ soooooooooooooooo mad

but I can do this. I can wait and be calm and not start being more obviously pissed yes. rly. ]

... there's nothing. I can do to fix it... apologizing is useless... Shirou isn't here... and even if that Shirou--it wouldn't do anything, change anything.

That sort of ideal... I told him it wasn't possible... I told him--

[except maybe it wasn't enough, maybe because he was too weak, because time was too short--or maybe it's just in his nature to ruin everything he touches...]

So you told him and he was a moron about it. You can't change the past.

What are you going to do then? If he's like you . . . if you're like him then you're pretty stupidly determined too. And that kind of ideal is worth more than you or anyone.

No.

[and that reminder of what the Grail would have granted him as his wish... remembering what he chose...]

Then what.

. . . the Grail... was my last option. Even that betrayed me, my ideal.

I will not... sacrifice what little I have for no reason. Not again.

I mean now.

What are you going to do now? As you said "The Grail was my last option. Even that betrayed me." Choosing not to sacrifice is fine, it's the better option anyway but . . .

No, you... misunderstand.

I will not sacrifice what little I have and I will not allow others to take them from me, either. This is a resolve I already made.

Just...

[no longer a magus, so to get power, he'll have to petition and confront the gods, offer himself up...]

. . .

Can Irisviel sustain a Servant?