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[timeandagain]

Who: anyone
When: Day 43, late afternoon
Where: Apartment L
What: SUCCESS

[GOOD JOB KIDS you found noodley spiderfood]

Comments

[timeandagain]

You can try to ignore your 'heart', but that does not mean it isn't there.

[besomeothername]

...

[Fussing needlessly over the bandages]

Red made choices that I never would have.

[timeandagain]

. . .Why is it important what choices Red made?

[besomeothername]

Because it's like looking in a mirror and seeing the life that you could have had. All those 'what ifs' finally answered in the flesh.

[timeandagain]

You are looking the wrong way.

[besomeothername]

Oh?

What way should I be looking then?

[timeandagain]

Forward, instead of backward. You can't change the past, but the future has yet to be determined.

[besomeothername]

The future?

[Sighs]

... Pochi, the only future I care about is getting out of here.

[timeandagain]

Then do that.

[besomeothername]

... Will you make sure Red's okay if I do leave?

[timeandagain]

. . .Why wouldn't you leave together? Don't you both want to go back to your home world?

[besomeothername]

No, Pochi. I'm dead. I want to go where all the other dead people go.

Gave it my all, but oh well. I'm sure they'll manage fine. Everyone else is still there.

[timeandagain]

. . .

We are all alive here. You're alive. So nothing has ended. . .

[besomeothername]

It ended the moment I died. I was supposed to get a new beginning.

Not--- [Vague hand gestures] serving as weedkiller to a bunch of gods that let their first batch of mortals die out.

[timeandagain]

Then––go find your new beginning! But dying won't give you that. . .! Death––true death––is the end of your time and your memories, there is no beginning or future in that!

[besomeothername]

If that were true, then the Maker wouldn't be able to make Akuma! There is a place after death and this isn't it!

[timeandagain]

Because we're not dead!

[besomeothername]

So what? You think you're somehow going to find a way to go back to your own world?

[timeandagain]

Yes. And I won't just leave everyone behind.

[besomeothername]

[Shakes his head]

It's not that simple.

[timeandagain]

Of course not. A wish to protect others never is, I have learned that much.

[besomeothername]

[No, it's not that either]

What if the person you were looking for wasn't back home?

[timeandagain]

If it was me? Then I would search for them.

[besomeothername]

And- completely hypothetical of course- if they were dead?

[timeandagain]

[Oh there's a sore spot :'D]

. . .