Just a rainy day...

[oi_theoi]

Who: Anyone
When: Day 59, Noon
Where: Anywhere
What: A soggy mingle.

[ The mist around headquarters is mostly cleared along with the morning air, but people may have noticed that it hung around much later into the morning than usual. The rain that started in last night has also been continuing, strong enough to be heard anywhere inside the stone headquarters and much heavier than one would expect for a sudden tropical rain. It also looks as if it'll be lasting the rest of the day and then some. Hope you've got plenty of indoor activities planned for the day. Or don't mind getting a little wet if you don't. ]

[ So what are your plans, Thusia? ]

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[yuetsu]

[ HM. Time for a wander. Happy wander. ]

[severingbonds]

[THAT FACE IS NOT OKAY

ugh what do ...]

[yuetsu]

[ oh I see you there. ]

Emiya Kiritsugu.

[severingbonds]

...Kirei.

[yuetsu]

Hello again.

[severingbonds]

[i don't like it when you smile it's weird]

You're in a good mood.

[yuetsu]

I suppose I am. And how are you?

[severingbonds]

[AWFUL]

Fine. [hnnn]

[yuetsu]

Oh, I'm glad to hear it.

[ yes I will wander over into your space. ]

[severingbonds]

[I AM ASSUMING WE ARE IN PUBLIC SO I WILL NOT BACK DOWN]

....are you happy?

[yuetsu]

Happy? Right now I am. Well, it's a good feeling.

[severingbonds]

A good feeling isn't the same as being happy, even you should know that.

[yuetsu]

Don't ruin the mood.

[ though s if you could ]

[severingbonds]

I'm just wondering what your price is, throwing away everything you worked for your entire life for 'a good feeling'.

[yuetsu]

Everything I worked for in my entire life?? What a statement.

[severingbonds]

What else was there? Did you find anything other than religion and trying to overcome yourself?

[yuetsu]

Religion and 'trying to overcome myself' . . . those were empty themselves. In reality there was nothing to begin with. So there is nothing wrong with questioning God, is there.

[severingbonds]

They weren't empty.

[yuetsu]

No? Then what meaning do they hold? For over thirty years I labored under them. An entire lifetime of devotion and denial. My father's death, my wife's and my heart. And it came to nothing. I would consider it empty. I have no purpose and no meaning and even the idea of living life to live it -- that's a joke for me, isn't it? And so I sought to answer that question.

[severingbonds]

Wife...?

[SERIOUSLY?]

...I know you can't really find happiness in this world, and that your own purpose means nothing to you. ...but at least you had one before.

[yuetsu]

An experiment. It failed.

'At least you had one before.' Isn't that nice.

[severingbonds]

It's more than nothing. A question isn't a purpose. Especially when you already know the answer.

[yuetsu]

Of course it isn't a purpose. But is also 'more than nothing', do you see? Meaningless, pointless. Well, it doesn't bother me right now.

[severingbonds]

Does it usually?

[yuetsu]

Oh, enough to drive me to pray.

[ sounds super amused though ]