The ultimate point to that, Becca, is I was a very, very, very stupid little girl. I didn't understand I could be lied to, I didn't know how to judge people properly, and I was a smiling liar because that's what I was taught to make me 'useful' before my seemingly unavoidable death. I had only the barest sense of right and wrong and I could ignore it so easily given the right pretty words.
When I went to Sabra La Tau, I had all my memories taken, I was back at square one. Except with a message from myself that said not to be fooled and that I could handle what was to come. She was mostly right. She assumed the worse because she'd been taken in enough to realize it. But except for one sort of scenario, everything she felt in her life would prepare her for what Sabra La Tau would throw at her.
I'm still not sure if it was fortunate or unfortunate I didn't get my worse memories till near the end.
But the biggest change in me was the people. Instead of a father who only saw me as a tool, I had a wonderful family. I had people who cared about me and encouraged me and despite all the hardships, despite the times where I've hit such low points and didn't know how to deal with things, I started to see and understand people. Because there were people I could trust. People I could see and learn about.
So, the little girl got better, don't you think? [Smiling.]
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[And continues anyway.]
The ultimate point to that, Becca, is I was a very, very, very stupid little girl. I didn't understand I could be lied to, I didn't know how to judge people properly, and I was a smiling liar because that's what I was taught to make me 'useful' before my seemingly unavoidable death. I had only the barest sense of right and wrong and I could ignore it so easily given the right pretty words.
When I went to Sabra La Tau, I had all my memories taken, I was back at square one. Except with a message from myself that said not to be fooled and that I could handle what was to come. She was mostly right. She assumed the worse because she'd been taken in enough to realize it. But except for one sort of scenario, everything she felt in her life would prepare her for what Sabra La Tau would throw at her.
I'm still not sure if it was fortunate or unfortunate I didn't get my worse memories till near the end.
But the biggest change in me was the people. Instead of a father who only saw me as a tool, I had a wonderful family. I had people who cared about me and encouraged me and despite all the hardships, despite the times where I've hit such low points and didn't know how to deal with things, I started to see and understand people. Because there were people I could trust. People I could see and learn about.
So, the little girl got better, don't you think? [Smiling.]